Exodus 4 is one packed chapter of the Bible. But rather than humorously poke fun at most of it today, I want to to a bit of reflection.
The jokes will come on Saturday.
Back to Egypt? Are you sure about that? Do I need to remind you of what that place is like?
It’s the place where all my classmates were murdered.
It’s the place where the people don’t understand me.
It’s the place where I killed someone.
It’s a place of failure, defeat, pain, shame, guilt, and death.
Why must you bring me back there?
My Own Private Egypt
I work for InterVarsity Christian Fellowship at Oregon State University. It’s a pretty sweet job. I get all the perks of being in college without actually being in college. I get to hang out and influence amazing students, talk about the Bible (which, if you haven’t noticed by now, I LOVE doing), encourage people to pursue their faith, and hopefully, change the world.
All in a day’s work.
Think of me like a missionary who goes into some foreign land and tries to raise up indigenous leadership. But instead of the jungles of South America, I am in the manicured lawns and artificially-turfed athletic fields of OSU.
But there is a part of this job that feels like Egypt to me. It is a part I can’t escape and will never be able to just run away from. Anyone reading this who has been on the mission field knows what I am talking about.
Us missionaries must raise our support. We send letters, give presentations, make phone calls, get coffee, and make the asks. But most of us didn’t get into the gig for the fundraising part.
That is a place where I feel like a failure. That is a place I don’t want to go back to.
That is my Egypt.
But I don’t really have a choice if I want to continue doing what I do. I wrote a blog to my supporters yesterday that you can read if you want to know a little more about how I am feeling and the details of why I am feeling what I am.
But it is a place God is calling me back to.
And I have to ask myself if I, like Moses, am willing to go.
What about you? Do you have Egypts in your life that you are being called back into?